You’re as humble as they come. Humble to a fault. But at least you’re not like those other people, who are thumbing their way into heaven.
Prone to sudden and unexpected gusts of optimism. Rare indeed, I agree, this optimism of yours, but with all the talk about climate change these days, how could you be any different?
You take great pride in knowing the truth. In understanding the world for what it is and as it happens. Unflavoured. Unseasoned. Just as it is.
You won’t listen to anyone. Because you already know.
You know exactly why you’re so miserable. Unsuccessful. Always tired. Pushing that heavy rock up the mountain.
You learned a long time ago that people are born with a silver spoon in their mouth. They’re just lucky. They’ve been given all the breaks. Given all their talents, while you were left wanting.
And they those people have armed themselves with a cunning ability to lie and seduce others, in order to get their way. To get what they want and couldn’t possibly deserve.
You won’t stoop to their level. You know you’re worth.
Your false humility won’t let you see the world the way others see it.
You’ve struggled. You’ve overcome much. You paid your dues. Faced adversity head on. Kicked life right in the balls.
You deserve so much more. So much more.
You can’t understand why things haven’t worked out. Why you’re not rich and famous. Why people are constantly blind to your genius and your ingenuity.
This baffles you. Frustrates you. Angers you, if we may be honest.
But through it all, you remain your quiet, hidden. Your best humble self.
And for what?
Is it worth holding on and dying with your illusions?
Is it important to be right?
To refuse to accept change?
You’re so afraid to fail. You fear your future and you cry yourself to sleep, as you look back and can’t help but regret the past.
If you don’t mind me saying. Your ass is so wound up so tight, that with a decent lump of coal, and in a few unspoken minutes, you’re able to produce the world’s purest diamond.
You have so much potential.
So much knowledge.
You’re endowed with so much inner and outer beauty and grace. So much life and love yet to give, yet you abandoned your dreams long ago, by the side of the road, like a smoked, unwanted, discarded cigarette.
You need some divine arrogance in your life.
You need some pride.
This false sense of humility that you wear like a mask, disguising your unseen pride, will only lead you to an early grave. Long before it’s your time. Unnecessarily. Sadly. You will die of a broken heart.
It’s time that you sing your song. Write your verse. Bake that fresh batch of raisin oatmeal cookies.
Forget your humility.
Embrace your humanity.
Fill your mornings with dreams. Abandon yourself at midday to your plans. Spend the night learning and making mistakes, while you ponder how this all fits together.
There is a place in this world for all of us. There is a need for all of us.
We are an insignificant speck of dust, but an imperative grain of a vast desert.
Don’t waste your energy, proving the false reality, you refuse to let go.
It hasn’t served you well.
Stand in arrogance, and dare to be, who you once dreamed to be.